I am (Enough)
I was one of those teenagers who had a high need for order, organization and a color-coded closet. During those formative years you might have called me an overachiever, a perfectionist or a high- frequency performer. Now, many years later I would call myself a recovering perfectionist. I’m able to give myself much more room to make mistakes and have much more self-compassion.
Today I am on a late lunch date with Jesus at a cozy little Italian restaurant called, La Tela. I order the same thing every time I come and sit in the exact same spot. They leave pretty, dainty vases on the table to greet you and leave me alone a long time while I sit and write. It’s just right!
I would like you to think of the words you speak over yourself. Proverbs 18:21 says, “The tongue has the power of life and death and those who love it will eat its fruit.” Sisters, words have so much power. They influence the very narrative we are living in our life. I want to be sure that you are internalizing the voice of Jesus and the voice of truth rather than your own (unless of course you are able to speak life-giving validation over yourself). I personally come from a background that led me to thinking and speaking more cumbersome lies and negative cognitions over myself. When I speak of negative cognitions, I mean things like this….For example: I will never get what I want, I am not important, I am not good enough, I am not valuable, I am ugly, I don’t matter. Etc. Etc. You get the idea!
Sisters, we need to learn to tell ourselves the truth in order for our Godly men to find us in a place of secure self-esteem and self-worth. What guy wants to attract a woman who feels so negatively about herself? My mantra to myself for many years has been I am Enough! My Father says so regardless of what any other voices or people may say. I choose to listen to His voice. May we stop and tangibly grab a hold of some of these negative cognitions so that we can replace them with the truth!
“Be conformed no longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is-His good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:2
Dear Jesus-I know I love you, but sometimes I lack the confidence and that heart level knowing that I love myself. I want to be attractive and ready for an emotionally healthy man to pursue me and I know some of these negative thoughts I have about myself are truly a hinderance. Help me to carry the cross of singleness well. Please rewrite the personal narrative I have about myself in my mind so I can be free of lies and negative cognitions. May my stature and energy be one of humble confidence, love and humility. I am enough! I am loved! I am beautiful in your sight. Thank you Lord! Amen