My Wandering Heart
Dear Darling Sister! It’s Spring now and the winter has passed. Nature delights with a blossoming new palette. There is a plethora of color in bloom and I cherish that the cold creeping winter is through. Butterflies flutter in the sky and hummingbirds visit the little tree outside of my window. The view looks hopeful from here and I couldn’t be more grateful. As I ponder the transition from winter to spring, I evaluate where my heart is and realize it has been very far from the heart of God. I have been consumed with my own endeavors and dreams. I have gotten entangled in my own sinful patterns and I have grown distant from the one who authored these desires. If you’re anything like me, once this reality is noted, I want to do everything in my power to bridge the chasm between me and my Abba. If you are dealing with a particular struggle in your life or a heart issue that has enslaved you, I want to spur you on!
Ephesians 5:8-14 says, “For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) and find out what pleases the Lord. Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them. For it is shameful even to mention what the disobedient do in secret. But everything exposed by the light becomes visible, for it is light that makes everything visible. This is why it is said: “Wake up, O sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you.”
We have a moment by moment opportunity to interrupt the cycle of sin and brokenness. I had an encounter a few years back that led me straight to a recommitment and Baptism on the beach in Maui. I had been avoiding and hiding from God because I thought my sin was too ugly and basically unbearable for me to think about. When I was in Maui, the Pastor at the water’s edge called out for anyone else who wanted to be Baptized. I could feel my heart warming up within my chest. My breathing changed and my hands got clammy. I knew I was being prompted to make a rededication of my faith that Sunday. I sprinted into the sea with my clothes on and was washed in the cleansing waters of Kapalua Bay. I could tangibly feel the freedom and redemption in that moment. I let that sin fall off and turned so quickly from any hint of that pattern of my lifestyle.
Maybe this story resonates with you in this season? Maybe it still feels like Winter and your need is for the newness of Spring to bloom in your life? Perhaps you have never committed your life to Christ and feel that nudge in your heart that is telling you to entrust your story into the hands of the Father? If any of the above speak to you, I would love for you to pray this prayer with me.
Lord Jesus~I want to know you. I want you to be my loving Father. There are a lot of questions that I have and I feel a bit apprehensive about choosing you to be my Lord and Savior. Even so, I have the faith to walk forward in trust. I confess my sin to you and acknowledge that I have fallen short in so many areas. I envision myself setting my heart into your capable hands. Mold me, shape me and fashion me by your Holy Spirit. What a privilege it is to be your daughter. Plant your love in my heart so that I might love and serve others well. I’m excited and thankful! Amen
Now that you have made this commitment or rededication I’m going to pray again for all of us for this day. Dear Jesus~We have been wandering through this world looking for love. We’ve been looking for love in all the wrong places just like the song says. We hear your voice, saying “Come daughter, come away with me.” There’s so much noise in our lives and so many voices to contend with. We desire oneness with you. We desire the fullness of your love, the best love there is. Father, take this sleepy heart and wake me up to be fully alive in you. Speak tenderly to the deepest places in me. We’re so grateful that Spring is now in bloom and the flowers point their faces towards heaven. We too raise our faces towards heaven. Shine upon us. May we be light where there is no light. Thank you. Amen