Date Number #23


The Dark Knight of the Soul

Pause.  Just pause for a moment and breathe in deep.  Have you ever had one of those seasons in life where things seemed pretty desolate and dark?  I’m sure if we haven’t yet, that we will.  This date is one that took the spirit alluring me and slightly dragging me out the door.  Jesus and I went to a sweet, little Thai restaurant where I know the servers and they know me by name.  I feel safe and comfortable there.  They seat me at the same table every time in a little nook by a fountain.

Jesus is reminding me that he has the capability to cause dry bones to dance.  He did it with Elijah and several other characters in the bible.  I have navigated clinical depression since I was five years old and at this point in my journey at almost 42 years of age, it has gotten really old.  The beautiful thing in all this is that I know that Jesus can deliver me out of it at any moment.  I am reminded of Ezekiel 37:1-9

” The hand of the Lord was on me, and he brought me out by the Spirit of the Lord and set me in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones.   He led me back and forth among them, and I saw a great many bones on the floor of the valley, bones that were very dry.  He asked me, “Son of man, can these bones live?”

I said, “Sovereign Lord, you alone know.”

 Then he said to me, “Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord!  This is what the Sovereign Lord says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life.   I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the Lord.’”

So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together, bone to bone.   I looked, and tendons and flesh appeared on them and skin covered them, but there was no breath in them.

 Then he said to me, “Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to it, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Come, breath, from the four winds and breathe into these slain, that they may live.’”  So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet—a vast army.”

It is such a powerful word to someone who is struggling with depression, apathy, complacency, anxiety or other emotional ailments to hear this word.  I am so thankful today for this assurance and that my dry bones will dance for Jesus in time.

Are you struggling with an emotional issue that feels oppressive or despairing?  Are you getting help for this trouble?  I strongly advise meeting with a competent Pastor or Counselor to address these issues and so that you have a support system.  There is nothing lonelier than going at it alone.  Take it from someone who isolated in her depression for a very long time.  It prolonged and deepened the hurt I was feeling.  Now let us pray for our emotional wellness and our hearts.

Dear Jesus.  You know what it is like to have a dark knight of the soul.  You have walked this walk and have feel the hurt and heaviness.  Father, may the echo of your voice and the comfort of your hand release me from this darkness.  I am tired and weary and my heart is ailing.  Please cause my dry bones to dance for you.  I prophesy to these dry bones and this broken heart to rise up in your strength.  Lord deliver me out of this sadness.  I claim your promises for me today and all of the days of my life.  I want to glorify you with this depression and heaviness.  Please show me how.  In Jesus Name I pray.  Amen!