Date Number #30

You are never alone, my child

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When my brother and I were little we would travel to the Florida Keys with my Dad and on many of those trips we would deep-sea fish.  The photo attached is one of those years when I was about 8 years old.  The purpose of the picture is to get you to take a walk down memory lane and envision yourself as a young one.  What comes to mind?  Can you stir up some of the feelings you may have had as the eight year old you (or whatever age you are in your memory)? When I look at this picture I am reminded of a few things. First, how much I absolutely adored being accompanied by my Dad whether we were fishing or watching t.v.  I longed to have his attention and for him to be proud of me. Second, I’m reminded of how close I already held onto our heavenly Father.  On many nights you would find me with my nightlight journaling with my bible in hand.  I had so many questions for God from a very young age.

In Matthew 19:14 Jesus said, ” Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.”  We are so dear to the Father as children.  The beautiful thing is we can still approach him now in this very way, as little children.  I want us to feel permission to come to him in our loneliness, desolation or frustration as a single woman.  Although there are many blessings in being single, there are times when it is completely lonely.  I know for myself that I had many nights where I felt the desolation sweep over me.  The nights were always the hardest while being single.  I would feel like I was pounding the pavement chasing my purpose, while I had so much love locked up in my heart.  My heart would feel as if it was going to explode at different times.  I would always try to channel my affections toward our Father which is a tall order.

Today Jesus and I are at a little French Cafe sitting on the patio.  I am reflecting on being single and what it felt like so much of the time.  Are you in a season of loneliness?  Do you feel deserted by God?  Is your vocation or purpose the one thing that seems to take over your life?  Sisters, keep pushing forward. Keep praying and lamenting.  I truly believe that Abba is working on your behalf even now.  May we be his eager little daughters who thirst for his grace and provision.  May we feel loved on by Him today and all of our days.  I penned this note during one of the times that I was feeling lonely and betrayed by God.

My Child~I adore you.  I love every little detail about you and how I designed you to be.  I am your secret place.  I am your portion and reward.  I watch you work so hard and I am well pleased with you.  You don’t have to perform for me or for anyone else.  You are enough right now in this very moment.  Cease striving, my daughter.  You are never, ever alone.  I hover over you with delight and singing.  Trust me, you won’t find what you are looking for outside of my presence. Allow me to orchestrate the details and provide for you just perfectly.  You are sought after and chosen by me.  In this season, let that be enough.  I desire for you to rest in my promises and wait well.  I will infuse you with the strength to accomplish this.  I love you, my child, my precious one.

“The Lord has made proclamation to the ends of the earth; “Say to the daughter of Zion, ‘See your Savior comes! See, his reward is with him, and his recompense accompanies him.”  They will be called the Holy people, the redeemed of the Lord; and you will be called Sought After, the City No Longer Deserted.” Isaiah 62: 11-12.