Date Number #59


I have recently started doing two things that have been passions for much of my life: dancing and singing.  I started co-leading worship at my church last week and I am signed up for dance classes.  YAY!  It popped into my head as I was reflecting on the worship experience, how God truly does restore the years the locusts have eaten.  It may take years, but He does it.  Joel 2:25-26 says, “And I will compensate you for the years that the swarming locust has eaten, The creeping locust, the stripping locust, and the gnawing locust—My great army which I sent among you. “You will have plenty to eat and be satisfied And praise the name of the Lord your God Who has dealt wondrously with you; And My people shall never be put to shame.”

As you may know from an earlier entry, I have battled clinical depression for most of my life.  Thankfully, I am on the right medication and I have felt better than ever the this last year.  I am more grateful than words can fully express.  When you are depressed, the things that once seemed desirable and gave you pleasure just aren’t anymore.  I stopped dancing, I stopped going to events and activities I would once attend.  There are countless things I missed out on because of my depression.  As I look back on it now, I see how off even my thinking about myself was.  Moral of the story, God has used it endlessly and my prayer is that He has been glorified in the ways my story has affected others.

Today Jesus and I are dining at a local hole in the wall that I love.  I am tucked away in the corner writing and noshing on some chips and guacamole.  My fave!  He is talking to me about the restoration process he does in our lives.

Do you have a season in your life that feels like it was a waste?  Are you depressed, anxious or dealing with some other type of emotional challenge?  Let me be the one to encourage you and affirm you that NONE of it is a waste.  It is ALL a part of a remarkable story that God is unfolding for you.  If you do suffer with mental health challenges, please please seek help.  I can assist you with that process or someone at your local church can give you a referral.

Let us pray boldly for his restorative help in our communities, homes and relationships.  He is the Great Physician and can do anything with His healing hands.  Even our hearts can be restored back to full health after they are broken.

Dear Jesus~Thank you for using my pain and brokenness for you glory.  Sometimes it is hard to believe and wrap my mind around, but I choose to believe it.  I don’t want these experiences and hardships to be a waste.  They have been such a burden to me and my heart hurts.  I release the pain into your loving hands.  I submit to your healing and restoration fully.  Please take the things the locusts have eaten and return them to me and my family.  May my love and I be the healthiest we can be for each other.  Thank you for guiding, leading and directing the timing of this healing.  In Jesus Name I pray.  Amen!