Date Number #87

Letting Go

This is going to be a difficult entry sisters!  Just fair warning ahead of time as this week I’ve been reminded that letting go of a love is such a process.  Grieving is not linear! I have gone round and round between sadness, depression, anger and bargaining that he’s going to came back to me.  Sometimes we have setbacks and times we feel all of the flood of emotions more than others.  This week marks almost 10 months since my break up and I still have tough days which I guess is to be expected.  I find that during these weeks I listen to more sad music and have the desire to contact him and connect.  As I said, letting go is rough!

Are you trying to let go of a person or circumstance that is painful?  Are you allowing yourself the time and space to grieve fully?  James 4:9 says, “Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom.” We are given the permission to even wail before the Father.  I have done this countless times since my ex and I broke up.   Even though I was the one to end our courtship, it doesn’t hurt any less.

Today I’m writing from a little coffee shop downtown and there is a hustle bustle of people.  Part of me wants to walk out because at any moment I could start crying as I write this.  Jesus truly is my comfort and He desires to be yours as well.  May we spend some intentional time in prayer today for ourselves and for our future husbands.  They may have grief and loss in their lives that needs addressing too.  I pray that the Father applies His gracious balm of Giliad to our wounds promptly.  Let us enter into a time of prayer.

Dear Jesus~I thank you for helping me in my grief.  It is truly bittersweet to experience love and loss.  I am so grateful to have loved my ex.  I am also so grateful for the true companion you will bring to me.  I sit and wait in expectation for the man you will bring to me and my sisters.  I pray for him this day with a heart of love and openness.  I have so much love to give and I am ready for you to deliver in your perfect timing.  I will not go looking or try to place myself at the right place at the right time. Thank you for your providence in my life.  You are so good.  Please protect my man from the lies of the enemy in his mind and cover him with your feather.  Rejoice over him with singing!  I love you Lord.  Amen.

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